"All thy waves and billows have swept over me!" ~Psalm 42:7
We don't get what we search for. We don't even get what we deserve. We get the ocean of God's love every moment of every day. But it comes to us in waves too full of paradox and too big for the tiny cup of this mind. Just accept that every moment is an overwhelming wave of divine Grace, and you will be closer to Truth than any scientist or philosopher.