Your Breath Is A New Creation
A profoundly simple instruction is repeated verbatim in the Shiva Sutras, the Vijnana Bhairava, and the Orthodox Christian Philokalia: “rest the mind in the heart." The alchemy practiced by cats, Taoist masters, and breast-sated infants. There's no difference between purring, chanting "Om," or gurgling “Mama” in the democracy of the heart. Yet it's really not a practice at all, but the surrender of practice, where doing yields to Being.
Rest the mind in the heart. If you want to stay
safe, you might regard this as a method of relaxation or stress management. But if you are an adventurer, you'll let it be the portal to a New Creation.
The Heart is
not just a beating organ for aerating your blood, but a doorway. At an ancient temple, you could only pass over the threshold after removing your shoes. Shoes
represented the beliefs and assumptions covering pure consciousness. You had to remove the dust on your feet and the clutter on your mind before you were permitted to enter the sanctuary. So today, we descend from the cluttered mind into the heart, the sanctuary of Presence.
Breath is a well, a portal into the depths. As you exhale, descend into subterranean darkness. The nadir
of prayer is the trough between your heartbeats, the furrow between outbreath and inbreath. Thus the scripture asks: "What does it mean that he ascended? It means that he first descended into the depths of the earth" (Ephesians 4:9).
To descend into the depths of your heart is annihilation,
and re-creation. Enter naked,
unshod, into the potent tenderness in the ripe core
of your chest. This is the space where old worlds dissolve and new ones are born. It is the black hole at the center of every galaxy, the zero-point in each proton of matter. All the information of the universe concentrates in this Bindhu of Unknowing, this Cross where opposites
converge in silence, this Ayin Soph of infinite possibility in a dot of nothing.
The creation of the universe is a singularity at the center of your Being. The Big Bang happens in a moment of eternity at the core of your heart. Where did you think it happened?
Now hear the words of the ancient yogic text, the Vijnana Bhairava: "Exhalation goes out,
inhalation comes in. At the stillpoint where they merge, one enters the space
from which the cosmos comes forth and into which it is absorbed… The supreme
Goddess, whose nature is to create, constantly expresses herself as outbreath
and inbreath. By resting awareness in the space of the heart, between the
descending and ascending breaths, one experiences Bhairava, the source of
creation."
My teacher once said, "Blessed are you when you are confused, for then you
descend from the mind into the heart." We easily learn to disregard the
chatter of thoughts when we meditate. But can we disregard our expectations?
They too are just thoughts, yet we cling to them as beliefs
about the future. Through expectation and belief, we try to etch our timeline in stone, replacing the fluid, infinite possibility of the universe with the neat little blueprint of our mind. We may even think, "I am manifesting my intentions," when we actually
spoil the innocence of the heart, wasting the opportunity to be touched and
guided by Grace.
Inscribed over the gateway where Dante
began his journey of descent, and ascent, were the words, “Give up all hope, ye who enter here.” Though this has been misunderstood as a curse, it was actually a positive sign. For only when we abandon expectation, relinquish the future, and
surrender to the Uncreated, does our mind descend into the heart.
We cannot possibly plan or foresee the new world that is percolating out of Christ-Consciousness. "For anyone who is in Christ is a new creation; old things have passsed away: behold, all is made new" (II Corinthians 5:17). We breathe in the Creator Spirit, and breathe out a New Creation with each exhale. This is why the most wonderful things happen when we least expect them, and
almost nothing planned in advance turns out to be very interesting. The artist Marc
Chagall one said, “If I create from the heart, nearly everything works; if from
the head, almost nothing.”
What happens when you plan your life perfectly? If you’re lucky, your plans
fall apart and the unexpected blossoms out of the cracks - which is when real creativity, real
inspiration comes. Yet on rare occasions, your event goes precisely according to plan - and turns out uneventful. Do you really want to repeat in the world what you have already done again and again in your head?
Abandon hope. Descend into the heart's inferno. Breathe the first day of a New Creation. It is precisely at the point where Dante reaches the deepest pit of the abyss that he beholds the stars above, his direction instantly reverses, and his ascent toward paradise begins. So we realize our own divine comedy in the descent and ascent of this breath...
There was never any future. There is only
the bursting of Presence into new dimensions: this eternal hologram. Surrender to the terrible sweet current of beauty. To breathe an unborn freshness through the heart is the original meaning of the word “couráge.”
Nothing real can be expected. Reality will never emerge from a tangle of old stories, unreeling the karma of repetition. We must discover the real in a perpetual Now of
awakening. This very moment is the soft-petaled rose of the Mother's grace,
a silent explosion that annihilates every name and form we ever thought or
knew. In the desolation of hope, the undoing of ideology, miracles happen.
Miracles are real, but they take birth and dissolve each instant. Only the eye of the
heart is quick enough, alive enough, to catch them. This is how you walk
barefoot into a New Earth: left step, right step, breathing
out, breathing in, destruction, creation. Slowly, nostrils flared, scenting the miraculous, moving through
Presence like a panther, one foot, then the other, creation, destruction, each a
step from fullness to fullness. This is not a metaphor.
When you descend from the gray world of mental concepts into the rainbow energy
of the heart, you literally walk into the real earth. Don't worry about how it
gets fleshed out. You have already created it. The manifestation sprouted as a
subtle flame on the altar of your breastbone. Now just let the elemental
spirits, angels of fire, water, wind and soil, gather their atoms around your
breath, and lay down wild fecund meadows under every footstep.
Image: Heart chakra, changeyourenergy.com

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