The Name of the Friend
My heartbeat is the name of the Friend. My inbreath is Sophia, the wisdom-mother who danced with the Almighty when the world was made. My outbreath is Mary, who covers the earth with her blue-green mantle of compassion. Between breathing out and breathing in, a timeless empty Bindhu, smaller than a dust mote. I think it is a portal to the un-created, pouring forth the suns of God in petaled tiers, braided hosts of galaxies, spiraling hierarchies, angels untamed, feral creatures of dark energy more vast than supernovae plunging through waves of the void on fins of fire, bearing gifts of awful loveliness, the faces of children about to be born on the new earth. I sink, I drown in this hollow between breaths because I am not afraid of loss, of annihilation, of beauty. And I know it is a place deeper inside me than I Am. Gaze into the gaze that creates you. An amethyst resting in a flame burning at the center of the golden rose in yo...